My mind wanders…is that an aging thing? Perhaps – but my
mind has always wandered… Maybe I have a touch of ADD… maybe I just don’t have the
personal commitment to stay focused on one thing at a time. Maybe I’m too impatient (well, there’s no
Maybe there – I am very impatient)… Most likely, it’s a combination of factors that
lead me to constantly jump from one project to another, from one idea to
another…
I am notorious for starting a major project at home and not
finishing it. Changing seasonal clothes
for instance. Once I get all the boxes
out, I realize I need to clean my closet out too… which means dragging
everything out and piling it on my bed. Then, I start with great intentions of putting
everything away where it should go, removing all the things I don’t or can’t
wear anymore, etc. Halfway through, I
realize I need to do a load of laundry… on the way to the laundry room, I see
that the mail came so I go get it… then I decide to make some iced tea…when I
finally make it back to the bedroom and the closet mess, I have zero motivation
to finish it so I end up just putting everything away and shutting the door….or
move things from the bed to the top of my dresser to get to them later. But later never comes…I think you get the
picture.
Similar situation at work.
Lots to do on my To-Do list. Every
morning I look at the list and prioritize it. At the end of the day, I realize that nothing
(or very few things) are checked off. I
started on several things and responded to other requests and needs from people…
or my mind wandered and I spent too much time chatting, etc.
I am also the type of person who wants to do a lot of
research on a product or service or way of doing something… Pinterest, Google,
YouTube, etc… all get a lot of use when I’m looking at something new – a new
phone for instance. I will read 17,000
reviews, look at videos, read about how to use it and what great things it will
do. I can tell you the differences
between phones and why one is better than another. I will finally come to the conclusion of which
one I want and then – BOOM – someone mentions one I hadn’t considered…and the
process starts all over again.
I waste a lot of time.
I am also very impatient.
When I want something, I want it now. A lot of that stems from all the research and
planning that I put in (see above)…but also, I just don’t like waiting for
something. Whether it’s changing phones
or going on a vacation – I want it NOW!
Same is true for my weightloss journey… When I have an
especially grueling session at the gym, I expect to see results. In my mind, I know that is ridiculous and instant
results just don’t happen. But, I still
want them. And when I don’t see the
results immediately, I get discouraged. That’s why I start off each week with the best
of intentions – I’m going to workout hard every day, journal all my food
intake, only eat healthy foods, etc. By
Wednesday (if I make it that long), I’m frustrated cause the scale isn’t
budging or I put on a pair of pants that aren’t as loose as I’d like and I’m
back to square one. It’s silly, I know
that. I know that the changes I am
making have had a life-changing effect on my health and longevity. I know that – but I still want instant
results!
Damn, I’m a needy, impatient, easily distractible person – a
real joy to be around!
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